High/Low

I am playing high low with myself and whoever is reading this, because I have experience some very different sentiments towards my job in the past month or two and would love to hash things out a bit. Two weeks ago, I was very high on life. I loved my job because of the relationships I am developing with the teachers and students, the experience I'm getting with the language and teaching in a classroom, and all of the doors it is opening for me to experience another country's education and social structure. I very much like my flat and flat mates, the people I have been meeting are great and I have an exciting and interesting social life, finances are solid, and there there are countries and to be searched and plane tickets to be used in the upcoming months. I joined the band Industrial Engineers (though I'm the only female of 7 who also happens to not be an industrial engineer) and I really like the group, think they're fun people who are great to work and socialize with, etc......

On the other hand...

This past week I've been missing my family, friends, the beach, being a student, intelligent conversation, my dogs, clam chowder. etc. I am really excited to being reunited with my band from home and making beautiful, funky, out of this world music with them. I really think if we invested enough into it we could do very well. I would like to try to invest in an income property so that I can live in Rhode Island with who I want to while I'm there and rent it out if/when I travel for long periods of time in the future, to go back to school for my masters degree (I'm thinking in Anthropology or Social Work), and maybe even to go to some casting calls in Boston and try to do some acting like I used to want to do when I was little. As much as I love meeting new people and trying new things, I would like to be semi-established somewhere and be able to have something to fall back on and to come home to that is my own.

On the other hand...

I am still young and unattached... This is the best time for me to travel and learn things experientially. I am working a steady job, providing for myself, and traveling as I've always wanted. I was looking into volunteering at an orphanage around here for the year and recently have been offered a volunteering position for the year and a paid position for all of next year, working far less, earning a lot more, and spending only a month in each village in the Czech Republic at a time...It's kind of a dream position that I wish was available now, but the project is starting up next year. There are other countries to be explored to if I stay here...

On the other hand....

I miss home.


Temporary conclusion: Put these thoughts out of my head, enjoy the here and now, and begin to think about next year over Christmas break.